And the storm continue...

looks like, aku masih mesti bolak-balik dokter n rumah sakit. kukira bulan kemarin semuanya bisa berakhir. cape juga sebenarnya, tapi badan juga kan amanah, masa iya didiemin aja. lagipula aku sudah cukup mendiamkan semuanya hingga akhirnya jadi kayak sekarang.

so i think i've to prepare some extrabudget this month, probably the same amount as last month. last month visits to doctors and hospitals, cost me about 700 thousand rupiahs. then i think, this months health budget will cost me around the same number.

so, bener kata babe , kesehatan itu harta tak ternilai...

thinking about death

IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER
oleh Erna Bombeck (ditulis setelah didiagnosa mengidap kanker)

I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.

I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.

I would have talked less and listened more.

I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained or the sofa faded.

I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.

I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.

I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.

I would have sat on the lawn with my children and not worried about grass stains.

I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.

I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.

Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.

When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, "Later. Now go get washed up for dinner."

There would have been more "I love you's." More "I'm sorry's."

But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute, look at it and really see it , live it and never give it back.

gopar

hari rabu kemarin. pagi-pagi gak sempet makan. nyampe kantor makan pizza tabur sambal ABC, yummy dikasih sama mariceu. siang-siang makan restorja gak pake lama plus batagor yang pernah berjasa bikin antie mengidap penyakit gondongan. sore-sore makan kerang rebus aja. malam-malam disodorin rujak sama mami. dini hari sakit mag kambuh. pagi hari dimarahin mama. plis gituh, kan yang nyodorin rujak mami sendiri, aq yang berdosa ini udah sakit masih disalahkan pula. ke dokter, gak banyak variasi obat. dari jaman inkubasi sampe akut begini variasi obatnya masih seputaran enzyplex, lybrozim, mylanta. ada juga dulu obat yang mesti diisep-isep, tapi aq gak suka yang kayak gitu. obat-obatan kayak syrup, puyer, jamu dll bikin aq tambah mumun. menyedihkan sekali, tapi emang resiko gopar begini. oia, istilah gopar syndrome ini dipopulerkan oleh mariceu.penyakit gopar ini berawal dari pola makan yang tidak sehat serta sikap-sikap indisipliner yang berakar dari kurangnya kesadaran atau pemahaman tentang kesehatan pribadi. ya...dari penjelasan itu,kira-kira bisa kelihatan lah gimana pola makanku. ya mudah-mudahan aja, hal ini bisa jadi pengingat biar gak diulang lagi. ehm tapi gak janji ya....hehe

ririwit

lamun diinget-inget, sawantara bulan ka tukang teh geuning meni remen pisan gering. meus meus ka dokter, meus meus ka dokter. eta mah gaji, sugan beak ngan jang nebus obat jeung beaya dokter. asa teu ari-ari boga duit teh. bener geuning, sehat teh mahal, nganku urang sok disapirakeun. padahal mah lamun open ngajaga awak, tangtu moal kaluar duit loba. ah tapi ketang, da manusa mah geuning kitu. kaduhung mah moal ti mimiti, pasti di tungtungnakeun. tapi teu jadi sual kitu oge lamun urangna diajar tina kasalahan nu enggeus-enggeus. nya nulis ieu oge kusabab keur insap weh, teuing kaengkenakeun mah. nya susuganan weh mayeng insapna hehe. amiin.

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nggak tahu mau nulis apa....................
.........................rasanya aku pilek lagi
gara-gara si aay.............................
........................jalan-jalan enak kali yee
udah ah, shalat dulu...sapa tau dapet inspirasi.